Well, it has definitely been one of those weeks. One of those weeks where you can hardly remember the days before kids, when you were able to talk in a normal voice instead of yelling, when you were able to go more than five minutes before hearing someone crying or whining, and when you were actually able to do something for yourself without feeling guilty about it.Sometimes I look at myself and wonder where this grouchy, irritable, mean person came from. How can a two-year-old and a ten-month-old do this to me? Granted, both of them have been sick this week, so things have been more difficult than normal, but lately, I just find myself yelling all day long! And then feeling guilty for yelling, because how awful is it to yell at a poor child who doesn't feel well!
And so, I felt the need to do a piece of art about this. I don't like myself when I'm so grouchy, and I really need to work on it! I'm sure that this week will get better since the kids won't be sick, and then comes Christmas and Grandma and Grandpa, so that will provide some nice relief. And then, in a couple months, my husband and I are going to Jamaica sans kids, which will be a wonderful break..., when we aren't missing the kids, of course! Oh, who knew motherhood would be such an emotional roller coaster, right? I guess I've always heard it, but until you live it, it just doesn't sink in...
9 comments:
I can totally relate to your post regarding being grouchy - I love the artwork!!
Vicki
i-think-im-an-artist.blogspot.com
love the art work :-) you always do a great job! Sorry you feel grouchy. I am sure you are a wonderful Mom! I totally know what you mean about being grouchy with kids without wanting to. I was a preschool teacher for 12 years before I had Lundyn and I loved them,but it seemed like all I did was yell at them! lol. Happy holidays! I hope your kids feel better soon!!
Being a mom is so hard. Being a creative mom is even harder I think because our creative time is all stolen moments...and you have two so young. argh. Mine a 4 years apart so it's a wee bit easier. Just a wee bit. LOL.
I was just having this exact conversation with Hubby a couple of days ago...I think if I yell the word "NO" much more, my poor toddler will start thinking it's her name! Just don't be so hard on yourself~for me that's the hardest part...we Moms beat ourselves up daily thinking that every little thing we say or do will send our little ones to the psychologist couch in their adult years. All they will remember is what a great, fun Mom you are and after reading all of your pregnancy journals and their baby books, they will know how badly each one of them was wanted and loved.
My girls are 5 1/2 years apart...your days are TWICE as challenging as mine~bless your heart girlfriend! :)
An honest, humurous, poignant and artistic look at motherhood. Thank you! Keep thinking about Jamaica...looking forward but realizing the beauty of what is with you now.
jodi barone
Ah, the trials and tribulations of motherhood. Don't worry we all have to get grouchy sometimes - the pressure can be soooo enormous.
Thanks so much for the lovely comments too Corey (dont have your email address - if you get a moment can you please pass on to me -thanks).
xo
You sooooo deserve a nice vacation! I love how honest you are about motherhood. Heck...I don't even have a baby yet and I'm grouchy and mean too!! Your artwork continues to inspire me...just love and so admire your talent and style.
I'm with Kimla--thank you for your honesty. it's reassuring when someone you admire admits she has grumpy days too.
Boy this piece of art speaks to me! Been there done that.... I'm enjoying your work. It is vvery "fresh"
Terisa
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